After being on Zoloft for over a month my anxiety has decreased so much and it doesn’t control my life like it did. I’m very happy I made the decision to go on it.
So my “date” has been moved to tomorrow night and oh my goodness am I anxious. The movie we wanted to see isn’t playing in this town, so we are going to drive to the next town over (30 minutes away). I know that getting nervous is just going to ruin everything, but I can’t help it. I can feel it from my chest all the way to my hands. I am terrible with boys. I’ve been on like one date before and I’ve only ever kissed one guy… and when he kissed me, I had an anxiety attack and he had to get me water. FUCK EVERYTHING WHY CAN’T I JUST BE NORMAL?
I’m usually not nearly this anxious at the beginning of the semester. Maybe it was the move, but my breath is shallow, my chest is tight, and anxiety is pumping through my veins. Fuck, I need to calm myself down before class. I think this calls for tea.
Anxiety kept me up all night. :/
I keep replaying the accident I almost got into yesterday in my head over and over and over again. Like, it’s mildly compulsive. Which is dumb, because luckily nothing happened. But, the whole thing was my fault, and I had passengers. I wish I could just let it go. It’s just.. holy shit it could have been really bad and it really scared me.